This weekend Pete and I were at our wit's end with the sleep situation. So, we let Josephine cry when we put her down for a nap. Just to see what would happen. We hoped she would miraculously self-soothe, or worst case, cry herself to sleep. Instead, she screamed for an hour straight. I scooped her up, and as she tried to catch her breath, her face splotchy with tears, she saw Pete standing behind me and gave him the most genuine smile. It was heartbreaking.
There are other things going on.
Things that I need to remind myself of when she is inconsolable, won't sleep, and I am running on my last ounce of patience. The poor girl has acid reflux. It is something she has been dealing with since birth. It affects her eating and it affects her sleeping. She only gained two pounds since her last doctor's appointment 2 months ago. She has been taking Zantac since 3 weeks old, and we are starting her on Prevacid tomorrow.
We need to get the reflux under control before we can even think about sleep training. It's just hard when you know that this is the age when babies are capable of sleeping longer than a couple of hours at a time. It is so easy to get frustrated.
But, it isn't fair to hold these unreasonable expectations. Not for her and not for us. On Sunday night we put her to sleep in the Mamaroo--something we haven't done in months. She slept for 11 hours. It was amazing! On Monday night, we did the same thing. And while she didn't sleep the entire night, she gave us a good 6 hours.
Our new goal is just to get her to sleep. Whatever that entails. We rock her, let her sleep in our arms, replace the pacifier every time it falls out of her mouth...
All habits that need to be broken, but not right now.

1 comment:

  1. Poor Josephine. Don't force it. She needs to be healthy first. Plus, I'm a firm believer that some kids just have a harder time learning how to fall asleep and stay asleep. Also, Emerson had terrible acid reflux and (in consultation with our pediatrician), she slept in an inclined position for the first 4 months of her life. (She actually slept in her car seat for about 3 months.) I'm sure you all have explored everything, but just thought I'd mention it.


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